Friday, February 24, 2012

If He Can Calm the Sea....

then He is capable of calming me.

My boy is hurting. Just when I think all is well and better, knew feelings arise and I get worried. No. Scared.

Choices are made that put my stomach in a knot. I feel sick and want to puke. Anxiety returns and I struggle to breathe. I remember....all those days....

So I stop. Look up. Remember THE day.

*The day my Savior made a way. The special day in a 5 year old's life when His Spirit came to reside.
*The day He brought my beloved into my life.
*The day that I am sprawled on my bed in tears and asking why. My Jesus comes near and touches me.
*The that I learned about my boy. The day I learned he wouldn't be. The  I day held him in my arms.(That was a roller coaster.)
*The day He placed my other three treasures in my arms.
*The day and many more when He is the only hope. He is the only Truth. He is the only Way. He is the only Sustainer of life.
*The day He showed me the simplest promises in His Word.

I wish there was only one day when I surrendered my lamb to the Lord. But there are many. I keep taking him back. I know Jesus is the only Healer of hearts. I fall down to my knees and lay him at the scarred feet of my Savior.

Friends, I ask for your prayers. The next couple of weeks are crucial in some decisions we have to make concerning "Hoss". Please pray for the heavens to open and provide what we need to keep helping our son.

God knows what He is doing. I must just trust. This is the only job I have.


Anonymous said...

Remembering all the things that the Lord has done is such a great antidote to fear. You're such a warrior in this battle. God bless you. Remember that many prayers are being lifted up daily for the Lord to guide you and work all of this out for good. I'm believing with you that it will.
Love you, Patty

Treasures Evermore said...

Yes....will be praying for your family. I am so sorry this is still happening. I have no advice...really. I'm at a loss as how to even encourage you. We have four adopted children, but even with that I don't know what to say.

But know 100% that I will continue to pray.

Quina said...


I haven't left a comment yet, but I just want you to know how encouraged and challenged I am by your walk with Christ, though I view it only from a distance. I've heard of your faith from others at my church, and I've read some of your posts and prayed for you in your journey. David told us to pray last night for your decisions, and I am praying. Thank you for sharing your heart with us, as God is purifying and molding it through the fire of refinement. I pray God's peace will rule in your heart as His Word dwells richly in it. I love you and am grateful for you and your family.

grace n peace,

Anonymous said...

Praying! Jane

Dianne said...

Praying especially for you and yours today--God is with Hoss wherever his heart is today--He is "there." He can heal every hurt in the twinkling of an eye. Trusting that He does just that. You are loved, dear friend.