Saturday, January 28, 2012

This Momma Loves Her Boy

Today is another special day. My biggest's Happy Gotcha Day. It seems like we just celebrated it. Time is going too fast. And he is away from home. This makes the heart sad. Every year, we celebrate these special days with each of the children. We write them a letter each year to remind them of God's special plan for their lives. This year "Hoss" is not here to celebrate. I'm not sure he would want to. So I pray and write to my Father in heaven instead.

My Jesus,

You started a work in "Hoss'" life 15 years ago today. You placed him in my arms. Sitting at the Tampa International Airport my arms became full; my heart became fuller. His sweet little face shone up at me. I knew You were in the midst of this.

This. This has become so hard. So difficult. Yet, I believe You are still in this. Though my boy is so much bigger now, he still can fit in this heart of mine. You answered a prayer when I asked for a child. You gave me three more.

God, I know that I have asked you so many times to do the seemingly impossible. I believe You are answering. In Your time. In Your way. I know you love this boy more than I do. I know you promise to work all things out for our good; for I love you and am called according to Your purpose.

Purpose? I have asked, "What is the purpose of this?" You patiently bring be back to Your Word and remind me of Your purposes.

So I thank You. On my knees. Full of tears. Open heart.

Knock. Knock. Knock.


Marco Crupi said...
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Small Town Joy: said...

Praying for that boy today!

kelli said...

I vividly remember that day as well! Praying for you today... and praying for restoration everyday. I love you sweet friend!

Anonymous said...

That day too for me is as if it was yesterday too! I cried and cried reading your blog. I feel your aching and longing for things to be "right" again. I know the Lord will do it! Love you!!!! Jen

Anonymous said...

Yes, yes, yes. Believing, too, for God to continue the good work He has begun. Stand firm and see the salvation of the LORD!


Treasures Evermore said...

What a beautiful letter...I am so sorry Hoss isn't with you. I just weep at the words..c.ause I can feel your pain in those words.

Now I have no answers either...but WILL continue to pray.

Anonymous said...

I think God would respond back like this - Oh Sarah, your precious faith moves me to tears. You have trusted me when many would have turned away. We have a bond that will never be broken and I know that's also your hearts' desire for your children. I have entrusted them to you and David because I love you and trust you too. Thank you for giving them back to me. I will never fail. I am the Lord your God.

BARBIE said...

What a heartfelt letter. I am praying for Hoss today and for your mama's heart to be comforted!