Overwhelming Fear and Grief...But God

If you are feeling as I am today. Fearful. Shaky. Angry. Anxious. Distant from God.

Then please listen to this.

God knew I needed it.

Now my bottle of tears is overflowing again. But God actually knows how many I've cried.

Complete Surrender

As I am reading through Surrender, by Nancy Leigh DeMoss, I am struck by the fact that my heart fights against this.

I am prone to anxiety. I am, at times, racked with worry. I have not surrendered my son completely.

I must.

Nancy quotes a poem by Ann Blocher before she went home to be with the Lord. She fought the battle with cancer, and in the midst of this, wrote these beautiful words:

Yes, Lord! Yes and Amen!

"Can you trust Me, child?

Not only for ultimate eternity,

of which you know next to nothing,

and so are not tempted to meddle-

But for the little span of your life between

the Now and Then, where your envision

decline and separations and failures,

impairments, pain, bereavements, disappointments-

Do you find Me qualified to Lord of your last days?

Oh-yes, Lord! YES, Lord! Yes and amen!

Can you trust Me, child?

Not only to synchronize the unthinkable

intricacies of creation-

But to work together for the good the gravities

and tugs within your little orbit,

where your heart is pulled by needs

and lacks you wish, but are destitute, to fill-

Do you find My resources adequate

to feed both the sparrow and you?

Oh-yes, Lord! YES, Lord! Yes and amen!

Can you trust Me, child?

Not only for the oversight of nations

and creations not of this world-

But for those beloved ones I committed

to you and you committed to Me-

Do you believe Me trustworthy to perform

the good work begun in them

until the Day of Jesus Christ?

Oh- yes, Lord! YES, Lord! Yes and amen!"

-pg. 204-205, Surrender by Nancy Leigh DeMoss

So Challenging....

She continues to bring me to my knees asking our God to change me. Thank you, Nancy.

I Am Not My Husband's Mother

Gratitude is the Attitude

#112 ~ Watching my beloved children feed the ducks and birds all the while remembering they really don't need our bread. Mt. 6 reminds me of my heavenly Father's loving hand that takes care of his creation.

#113 ~ No matter what happens with the dreaded health care bill, I know my Sovereign Lord wins in the end. Are you on His side?

#114 ~ A 11 year old, light green van that happens to be ours; it still runs and , oh joy, no payments needed!

#115 ~ a phone call with our beloved oldest this last weekend that brings so many mixed emotions.

#116 ~ Our faithful friends who minister at Proclaiming the Gospel.

#117 ~ This program that helps to revive my heart. Thank you Ms. DeMoss.

#118 ~ The daddy of this household that is so lovingly patient as he works with his precious "Marie" teaching her how to tell time and use money.

#119 ~ Listening to ,"O How I Love, Jesus" being played on the keyboard by my oldest little girl.

#120 ~ Encouragement from the life of Jonathan Edwards