Imagine anything wicked you can possibly imagine being said to you as a parent. It was said. It incited anger in me. Depression has tried to set in. Thankfully, my Tuesday mornings start with early prayer time with a dear friend of mine. So out of obligation, I rose early. My spirit was still in bed, and wanted to stay there all day. Forever. As I opened God's Word I felt that my hands were leading my mind, but I really wasn't there. I read the words, but they were just words.
Jesus calling came next. It reminded me today to have the intimate time in the morning with my Savior. I looked up one of the verses at the bottom. Revelation 12:10. "And I heard a loud voice in heaven saying, 'Now the salvation and the power and the kingdom of our God and the authority of His Christ as come. For the accuser of our brothers has been thrown down, who accuses them day and night before our God.'"
So, my mind was like, "O.K; on to the next thing." Comforts from the Cross, by Elyse Fitzpatrick is a 31 day walk contemplating the cross of Christ and the work done there. I open to day 4. BAM!!! There it is written in bold.
I get it. I lay down my Bible and cry. And cry. And cry. Satan will not win this war. He will try, but will not succeed. He wants me to doubt. He wants me to dwell on the evil spoken. I will not.
Amazingly enough, I had posted a few thoughts on the Facebook group page for Agape Boarding School. A few of the other moms chatted to encourage me and then one wrote this:
"Sarah I am so sorry to hear this - I believe he is dealing with some spiritual warfare right now I don't know why I think that just a gut feeling - he knows the program has done it before, but now "doing" the program isn't working so his heart must be twitching and I think Satan is feeding him some lies in his head, cause your son is trying to do the right thing but with his head not his heart. Don't ask me where this is coming from I have no clue just a very deep gut feeling.I could be wrong but I believe your son needs all of our prayers to help him through this time. Don't despair sista pray without ceasing and He will hear our cry"
I get it. I know God's throne was bombarded with the prayers of the saints crying out my son's name.