Thursday, April 29, 2010

Dream or Reality?

I arrived home on Tuesday evening from Tennessee and my emotions immediately hit me head on.

I felt as if the last 3 weeks have been a dream of some sort...like everything would be back to normal soon.

This is not to be. Mom is gone forever from this earth and I am sad. Every day I think of something I need to tell her and desperately want to call her, but she will not answer her phone.

Although I am melancholy, I still have hope eternal. This hope comes from knowing the Creator, my Sustainer. He has given eternal life to all who come to Him by faith. Mom is experiencing joy and peace everlasting.

I am sad. So sad, I cannot express it at times. But I know deep down inside that I will see Mom again.

She isn't dead; she is alive. She didn't die forever; she just moved from one home to the next.

And I know I will be with her again.

One thing mom's death has done for me: I fear death less and hope for heaven more.

May these thoughts remain forever.

5 comments:

Barbie said...

I am praying for you! I have not walked through this place in my life. I know God has the strength to hold you. He catches your tears. He will turn your mourning into dancing.

Dorothy said...

Oh, my heart is heavy for you at such a time as this and yet as I read about your mother I felt such encouragement too She sounds like a very lovely lady who put her faith in the Lord and that is what will get you through this time. It is beautiful that you had such an amazing relationship with your mom - that is a special blessing.
Hugs and blessings to you all,
Dorothy

sarahdodson said...

How sad that you don't have your mom here on earth anymore. I'm so sorry. However, the knowledge that you'll be reunited for ETERNITY is such a wondrous thought! and forever you'll be with the Lord!

Anonymous said...

Hey Sis - you wrote exactly what I have felt too - sadness sometimes I cannot express in words, just in tears. My only comfort is knowing we will be together again one day but in this old mind, it is just not soon enough! Yes, I hope for Heaven more and for us all to be together again. I love you and love that we are talking even if only for a few minutes everyday. Love you so much.
Jen

Stacey said...

It is hard. It has been almost a year and a half since my Mom passed, and I am still sad, still wanting to pick up the phone and talk to her. This earthly life is hard. But we are indeed hidden in Christ, and we know this is just a dim shadow of the beautiful, eternal life to come. Hang in there! Blessings to you.