Today on Talkin' about Thursdays we are discussing our personal goals.
Wow, this is a tough one.
I am not one to make alot of goals, period. I consider my "goals" more moments of day by day changing.
I'm not sure if this is good or bad.
One overarching "goal" is to wake in the early hours, so as to commune with my Master. This has been a fight and will be for the rest of my life. I probably have never seen it as a goal because due to the seasons in life, I don't know if I will ever achieve it.
And, I guess, this discussion, has revealed something further...I am a sort of perfectionist. If I can't attain the end result of achieving a goal without failing at all, I would rather not term it a "goal".
(Boy, I feel like I have just rambled on and on....)
On a more serious note, most of you, my lovely readers, know ,we, Cartwrights, have had quite a year in 2009 and one of us is not here right now. This event has resulted in much inner reflection.
So, I do consider a few things I would like to "own" in the next year:
1. More consistent respect and patience with my Darling. Those of us moms, who have boys that we are raising, know the importance of this. I want to honor God in this, but my little, big men also drive me to this. I am always clued into the fact that if I disrespect their Daddy, they will disrespect me...you can bet on it.
2. Reconciliation with our oldest arrow. This may not happen in my time and this desire is a "two way street", but this is my heart. Please pray for this to happen too. "Hoss" is hurting...I know the One and Only healer of that hurt. I must take my burden to This Healer every day.
3. Being proactive to help my children be more effective as "world changers." We can get very comfortable in our Western lives. I want my children to Do Hard Things.
O, Great Giver of life, empower me with your Spirit to achieve these things...for your glory.